if there is any trait of myself which i want to get rid of, it would be; judgementalism towards others.

many times, we humans forget that we are humans too,
but, what gives us the right to judge ?
many times, we pinpoint our fingers at that somebody and label him as nobody.
may i ask, who are we to do that?

the question now is, why are we being so judgemental?
it's really an irony.
as much as i hate myself for being so judgemental, a part of me tells me that i have to.
the reason being; it's a self-defence mechanism which we humans has adopted over the years.

we ourselves were once victicm of such unfair treatment.
to get even, we treat others with such unjust.
this is a never ending cycle, until probably everyone opens up their mind and accepts everyone for who they are.

judgementalism kills .
it kills the grace which all human should have.
it kills off the charisma of any normal being.
judgementalism is thereby a murderer of all the good traits found in a human being.
thus, redeem yourself! redeem mankind.

stop judgementalism!

people.

Recently, I have been pondering on quite a number of matters which i am glad i did because i already found an answer to those queries; many.

a friend once told me "karma will get you"
now, it really has; to the extend that i am feeling true blue miserable inside.
i've been throwing a bitfitch these few days thus, i do really want to apologise to any whom i had offended.

somehow, i feel that i lost my drive and determination in life.
perhaps love will spice things up but. ( buts... again)
perhaps this ratrace is truly tiring, real tiring to the degree that i just can't be bothered anymore.
however, i found a new self.
a self which i am going to embrace and i hope people will respect that.

i think quiet time is needed at this moment.
i need time to think of what i really want, in life, in love and in everything.
i need someone to purge me
! i need a new beginning; somehow.

respect.

many people proclaims " get a life ".
yeap. right now, i'm going to get my life back.
i should have lived my life like that ever since then.

moment of realisation, 18 years of stupidity. how amusing.

life as an urbanite.

experiences are meant to make us stronger.
my heart was deeply shattered today.
many of us would ponder; why. just why did this happened?
what has she done wrong?
the angelic eyes; those beaming smiles; the innocence we all once used to have.
it just makes no sense.

perhaps, 2008 just isn't a good year.
2008 is the year when i should be all happy and joyous that i'm 18.
a point where i am able to shoulder the social and legal responsibilities.
a year when i should be soaring so high.

yet today, my heart sank.
probably one year ago, she was still up and jumping.
probably she would have the fondest memory of children's day.
probably... just probably.

i just hope that she will be able to find peace in her new found home.
that god will always shelter her from all harm.
that angels surround her away from demons and bads.

i think, it's really time.
time for me to explore my religion.
time for me to value it.
time for me to change it if need be.

both my mom and i will be in church to offer a mass service on her behalf.
i'll turn vegeterian, all in her good will.
i can't forget those pictures.
those pictures of her smiles.

life is just ridiculously mocking fun at us.
in times like this,
just shut up and listen to your friend.
whoever it may be.
whatever they are.

god bless you.

feeling helpless.

whenever my friend faces any difficulty, i just hate it when i can't do anything to make him feel better.

i use to think that i'm blessed with almost everything.
but not quite. I'm missing a gift.
the gift to console people when they are down.
somehow, i realised i'm rather insensitive with my words, so much that it turns out to be offensive if intepreted wrongly which i really hate.
i am an ambassador.
telling the whole world about how good my school is. not a tough feat.
consoloing someone who just lost someone dear to them? total blank out.

sometimes i wonder, if life's really out to get us.
i'll pray for you. i really will. that is a promise.
now we all love you so you have to love yourself.
read this: i love you. so stay strong!

m.of.sound

totally, that was where we went after much contemplation.

oh no, we were on the dancefloor as soon as we got in, all the way until light's up. we were moving as if we were high on ecstacy!!! this is bad, i pretty much forsee that this will be an addiction. tsktsktsk. and my mom's sensing it. seeing her son who comes home after 5.30am in the morning for many times this week, she went " don't make it an addiction. "

and i just bidded my parents goodbye as they will be going overseas! ima such a filialboy as i made it home just in time to bid them goodbye. tskie.

you know i just realised something.
it take a minute to form a friendship but it takes a lifetime to forge a bond in that friendship.
when you all say " she's my good friend."
do you really mean it, so much that you managed to forge some bond within that short span of time or do you just say it for the sake of saying it. if you agree to the latter, oh boy, ima give you some sympathy ( oh no, don't reject it. you'll be needing it )

youknowwhoyouare. haha it was a good night spent with you. even though things werent pretty much the same, im still really happy happy happy happy with you.

honeybuns.my.love.