"One Night Only"
and definitely one of a kind.

saintjames was fabulous.
fabulously saintjames.
even though it was my first time there. ironically, it'll be my last.
ill miss the place, the people and definitely the podium.

ouh well.
i need some excitement in life.
it feels like a drag now.

hmmmph.
life's like that.
it doesnt happen the way you want it to.
but srsly, what can we do.
tell me about it and go suck bricks. kthxbye

here are some pictures.

im not allowed to post all the pictures but just enjoy all these first.
<3.

<3.

<3.

BURPS.BURPS.BURPS.

reunion dinner at gramps was just fine.
ouh well, the feeling of lethargy is hitting me bad.
non stop clubbing since friday night and guess what; i went on saturday night again.
thank goodness, it's lunar new year's eve and my mom wouldnt allow me to club tonight but its fine its all fine. i had my fair share of fun over the past 2 days. and and and, ima club on cny day1.
heh.

i know i know, lunar new year is arriving in like just 2.5 hours.
arent you excited like all the red packets.
i definitely am. HEH.
when i was clubbing yesterday, i received 2 red packets. heh.
it's a team of people from action for aids. HEH.
needless to say, the red packets were filled with 2 condoms, 1 packet of lubricant and a AFA badge.
yes. before you pound, please wear a condom. hahahaha.

oh; anyway;
happy lunar new year people.
get lotsa red packets.
heh;

right now. im just going to lay quiet at the balcony and enjoy the sweet breeze.
<3<3<3<3<3<3

play with me. :)

life has been much fun lately.

met up with timmie,joshua; ken and his bunch of friends (whom i dont really remember)
anyway; we went clubbing and i really had fun. like real fun with them.
ouh well.
havent seen with ken for 2 years and when we finally decided to meet in a club.
ouh well whatever srsly.

ken msged me today saying i changed alot.
" you have changed into someeone who is true to himself, going for who you are and what you want to be.. someone who has no restriction in life"
well; thank you mister. i know im free spirited.
ahhhh. i really love life right now.

clubbing plans.
fridaynight with b/f/l and his sekzy friends.
saturday & monday ( right, it's the lunar new year )
see ya sekzies around if you're heading down. :)

boooooo.
i heard some friends conversing and at some point; they were talking about how good this guy is in a relationship with his girlfriend.
so "good" that his girlfriend asked " why havent you asked me for sex after we've been in a relationship for so long? "
the guy replied " Who's going to bear and shoulder all the responsibility when something happens? Who is going to face the shame when something happens? it's going to be you (girl) and because I love you, i dont want something like this to happen."

hmmm; call that true love if you want; but i won't buy that. i didnt rebut what my friend said because i respect him and his words so i just kept quiet. i lay silent but OHMEGOD; can you feel that sense of dubiety; that amount of disbelief was just killing me. no, its not that i dont believe what he said, yes; such good guys exist.
BUT HELLLO MISTER; THERE'S SOMETHING CALLED A CONDOM.
okay fine, condom doesnt mean a fullproof plan but still, it's a god damn condom.
talking about condoms ( I still have that agnes b condom. yes people, it's agnes b)
in my opinion, sex is perfectly fine; seriously fine. i'm open enough to accept that some of my peers has had sex with his/her partners.

I may be a catholic; but like i've mentioned, i dont buy my faith from the bible.
I think drinking is perfectly fine; clubbing yeah. making out hell yes.
Being a catholic doesnt stop you from living your life.
I am not trying to prove anything. I am free spirited; maybe you should free yourself.
stop all the thejunks and the bulls that is stopping you from accepting who you really might be or even; living a life just for yourself.

just so can't believe that i am actually writing this at 10am in the morning;
how mind boggling.

so quick; and it's the 13th of january, 2009.

anyway; happy birthday brandon meatspin.
happy birthday you meatspinner!

I was pondering alittle when i was staring at myself infront of the mirror;
i'm 18.( and a half ).
just how comical and amusing my 18th year on earth was.
all shits just come slapping at you when you're 18.
like - getting into a freaking car accident, contracting shingles, feeling such a big disappointment that made me feel defeated. friends arent friends; lost a girl-friend :( - well, she lost me ( a better way of putting it ) and many more which i dont want to name.

18. it has been such a rollercoaster ride in the year 2008.
i must admit the happys made me felt blissed with whatever i have; contrastingly, the sads made me felt defeated.

Oh well, I am very single and available; I thought of mentioning this here because someone asked if i was attached earlier when i was outside school and i went " no? "

sometimes, i feel sad for some couples who quarrel over trival matters. sigh; relationship isn't that way. they can quarrel over simple matters like travelling far away from each other? srsly; phu-lease! it's so bloody mind-boggling when such arguements occur when they are already in a relationship. isn't a relationship something between two partners who are willing to be selfless and love in a non-obligational manner. It saddens me how couple claims to the whole damn world that they are attached but their actions don't seem to reflect the fact that they are attached. ( im not trying to be a relationship doctor but its just my own opinion in relationship ).

some couples quarrel over monetary issues; yes; i'm not saying that money is not important in a relationship. It is ; but argumenting over such issues just depicts how much juvenility your relationship contains.

my ideal of a relationship or love is simply; awaking each day wanting to see my partner. the eagerness of wanting to meet my partner as soon as possible. the urge to know that my partner is doing fine. the constant images of my partners flashing across my mind.
I know it's pretty simple; but shouldn't a relationship all boils down to the point where no factor can change the love between the two partners? not money, not distance, not even your disputes over which movie to watch ( GOD! ).

i've been pretty much single all my life.
it's not a bad thing seriously.
living a life just for self.
many times, i thought i was ready to step into one but when it's all turning reality, i hurriedly back off.
i dont know if i am ready still.
i'm sorry if ive hurt anyone; i don't mean so.
even if i did, i chose to hurt you at the start when i didnt mean much.
i dont want to get into one relationship whereby i'll realise later that i can't love you whole-heartedly, trust me, it'll be much more painful at that time.
i hurt you because you're someone who matters and i don't want to lose you.

i hope you'll understand after reading this.
it really sucks when no is the word that comes out of my mouth constantly.
i'm terribly sorry.

THANK YOU.

It was fun selling cookies today!
especially when it was all sold out within an hour.
thank you all who supported; thank you .

i will continue to bake more. HAHAHA.
baking is srsly getting fun. gosh.
(happyness)

alright; lets hit the reality tab now.
uhh okay tmr's openhouse. I have a presentation and I have to conduct a facility tour bus. GOSHGOSHGOSH. please pray that i wont lose my voice.
my voice is already sekzy enough.
kaythxbye reality.

my cough's really persistent. i've been coughing,coughing and coughing just like that old man down route 66.

the day started off well. like really well ( not referring to anything that has got to do with my cough)
class ended at 1pm; and i was free after that! some minor crookup for projects but that wasnt enough to spoil my day.
i spent my afternoon being mummy'sboy. ( shopping with mommy :)
headed home short after and tried resting as my fever just shot up and i was coughing even more badly.
but that wasnt enough to kill my day.

what killed my day literally was seeing a tear-filled sister entering the house.
when i see her, she smiled. when i asked her, she claims that all is fine ( what a award winning act! ha!)
but that really really really really killed my day. i am not kidding.
for more than a year, i haven't seen my sister tear so badly to the extent that her whole eyebags were popping out like how you squeeze the eyes of a goldfish. ( well, literally; i havent tried that and never will )
my heart felt painful.
then i was pondering for some short moment; when was the last time i did something brotherly for my sister.
my heart sank in guilt. effing 0. what a delinquent brother. ( thank you ).

thus, i searched high ( woah so high ) and low for a family picture; and i found it when i was 2 years old and she was probably 6 (looking so darn cute ) with my mom looking so hot and my dad as ugly as ever; ( kay, ill take the "ugly" back ) and me looking as cute as ever. ( go ahead and bitch whatever) okay back to the main topic!

thus, i wrote her a postcard!!!! despite knowing how fugly my handwriting was, i still went on writing her a card!!!! ( mag if you read this, you must upload the picture! ) so many heartfelt words luh until my mom said im such a pro when she read it. heh. ( but fyi, i dont do this often; or rarely even do it) . there was this line which i love ; you may not be the perfect lover; but you're the perfect daugher and sister. heh .

okay. enough of blogging.
i just hope my voice recovers in time before openhouse even approaches.
ack!
ill be selling chocolate chip cookies / butter cookies tomorrow ( yes yes yes in school )
3 for a dollar gold coin.
call me at 90112155 to locate me cause ill be running around. but please please please buy from me.
they are like hand-baked and very much edible!
call me call me call me call me call me call me call me.

party @ adam's was literally a blast.
adam, khaidan, fauzi, marcus, faith, chooo and myself.
what a great night filled with lots and lots of juicehhhhs.
heh.
gosh; :S sch's starting soon and why am i still suffering from a hangover almost every 2 days. well, i'm still 18. :)

Happy 2009 because I know this year will be even better and bigger and also more colourful. :)

after thrashing it out with a friend, he told me; probably a blog entry will save me from having to explain myself over and over.

if you guys are still at it; thinking that something happened.
you guys are just brainless to even start a commotion over something so trival.
do you know how much i am actually affected by it? if that's your motive behind it, now you succeeded.

eversince i came into ngeeannpolytechnic, life has been full of false accusations.
what the fuck is wrong with you guys.
you all just make me feel as though i dont know anyone of you.
get a life.

i want you to know this, after thrashing out with my friend.
he said this; dont even feel affected when nothing happened; it's a waste of time.
right, why would i even want to waste my time over such matters. god, did my brain just shrunk ?

here are just some videos to keep you guys going. smile. you look best when you're at it.
(youknowyoulovemycock). muhahahaha.
friggin koreans; they are just so good!

smile people. Y

for those who care; the above messege is for you.
right; happy 2009,world.

i've had such a blast on newyearseve.
had such a fun time clubbing at phuture / mambo ( it sucked! )
phuture's just happening. really; i swear.
we had a hotelroom where shit happens too. - drinking and puking; drinking and puking. what a repitition.
heh; when the clock hits twelve, i swear, i kissed like a wild beast let loose.
I'll post the pretty pics up soon; its all with Miss.Faith ( who apparently is still going crazy over "that" guy)


my new year's resolution ; (nope; its not going to be those samitarian-wannabe ones- worldpeace; less disasters, yeah right; go ahead and suck my toes.)

uhhhm. right.
.making progress within us and not stay lukewarm. ( IT REALLY KILLS )
.show appreciation to my friends
.treasure my family time more.
.staying true to myself and be contented with my personal achievements.

thats all ( for now ) .