time check. - 8.47am.

infact, i've been awake ever since 5am.
i have no idea but yes, i've been waking up irregularly. ( sometimes at 3, sometimes at 4 )
i think i've lost mankind's very own natural ability and that is to sleep for long hours.

actually, i've been thinking a whole deal!
where is that old me?
where i would bother to even treat you people as my "hi-bye" friends and now, it's evident that we won't even acknowledge each other's presence.

well, i have to say it's my fault. ( then again, is it really my fault?)

no, i'm not feeling guilty nor bad about it.
it's just a random thought and i never wanted it this way but since it happened, i have to live with it.

the fact is, i never really needed you people in the beginning anyway.
you people don't matter nor do i give shit about you. no i don't. srsly and really.

so

so

so

SO.

SO.



STOP RUNNING ME DOWN AS IF YOU ARE AT ANY LIBERTY TO DO SO.
NO, IT'S NOT YOU WHOM I HATE. IT'S THE THINGS YOU DO WHICH I REALLY HATE AND I WILL NEVER IN MY LIFE, BE ABLE TO FATHOM WHY YOU ARE DOING IT.

but as i've mentioned, no it doesn't matter.
i've seen and been in shits much deeper than this. yours is just mediocre.
so.
yes.

oh shit, i need some laxative now, cause you know what?
i've stored all the shits you thrown at me. yes, i've taken them down & swallowed them still!
right now i need a big dosage of laxative to give em back right at your face.

finally, i cleared all my posts from march till present. i happened to catch a glimpse of them by chance and those posts seriously didn't feel too long ago. i still can't fathom the rationale of me deleting all my previous posts, but i guess like how bennie always tell me " what matters most is the present, not the past nor future."

sometimes, what leaves me dazzled is this world. this stupid world that is filled with so much uncertainties. there's just too much of loopholes, and if i were to give you the benefit of doubt, i'll turn back to my own ways of being led by the nose just like how you walk your dog.

no.
edmund has his mind. eddie has his own views and he believes in them. so much for all these shits you have been throwing at me constantly.
this episode is over and i'm glad it is.
you are out of my life. really.

read this.
KTHXBYE