i guess we have to stop trying.
we really have to.
we have been trying so hard to get things going on but just recently, i realised that we are getting nowhere.
i guess what had brought us both together is no longer there, if it still was; we wouldn't be like this.

i've already done everything i can, just everything but now it's time to move on.
im completely aware of my unhappiness and thanks to it, i wasn't even able to catch a wink.
just stop whatever you're doing for us because i guess its time for me stop. you're every reason why i feel unhappy and uneasy.

nothing's turning out the way we wanted it to be and its just amusing at how nothing works out when we are trying to make things work. i just wanted to let you know that i am elated to see the change in you. keep it that way, don't revert back to your old ways when i'm less involved in your life.

my life shouldn't be how it is now.
i guess ive suffered enough injustice and you know it, (only you)
i need to try and love myself more.
just so you know, i really don't feel happy anymore.
give me a complete break. stop whatever we're doing. i've thrown in the white flag. you probably shouldnt hold on to it, just let go and live our lives like how we used to before we met each other.

if you want to drink. dont puke.
(if you want to, find the right place to puke)

please dont be a killjoy and puke all over the place because firstly it stinks like a garbage dump.
and please save people the hassle of washing up. im thankful that none of my friends are like that ; i mean even if they want to puke, they'll puke in the toiletbowl. <3 them for their SANITY.

having said all these, im recovering well. my fever got as high to 38.5, and ive been resting constantly since then; aside for the fact that i went to juying secondary school for boothduty.
friday's coming and i cant wait.

im not working this holiday ( AGAIN! )
ahh. hahaha.
srsly, i detest putting myself down in the service line where the customers are always right, if that's the case, i'ld rather be the customer than the employee. greatness.

few more weeks till school reopens! be recharged everyone but before school reopens, be prepared for the reopening of someplace momentous :D to me at least.

St Michael The Archangel,
defend us in battle,
be our defense against the wickedness
and snares of the Devil.
May God rebuke him, we humbly pray,
and do thou.
O prince of the heavenly hosts,
by the power of god,
thrust into hell Satan,
and all the evil spirits,
who prowl about the world
seeking the ruin of souls.
AMEN.

somewhat, i just love this prayer to st. michael ; the archangel.
amen.

My heart is smiling jubilantly just like the amount of sparkle this picture has; everything about this picture is just perfect. the smile, the sparking eyes.

you may be wondering why im smiling from the inside, im glad to tell you that im so happy with the balance i've achieved. this state of balance where i can study hard and party, all at the same time . it all boils down to time management.

my tutor - karenquah msged me early this morning " give me a 5 man, well done again!"
then i checked my results; it reflected 3.9 ( tell me about drama ) but i did far more better than i expected.
i was pleasantly surprised that i got an A for my management accounting. ( not trying to boast but i would have already been contented with a B+)

i would just like to say thankyou to msquah.
she has been my financial accounting tutor for 4 out of the 5 studying semesters.
though she wont be teaching AFA next semester but i really enjoyed myself thoroughly in her class; she is ever approachable and she told me " you have my no. emergency hotline is always available." then i gave off a small chuckle over the sms.

but what makes it so god damn satisfying is that, over this semester, ive been enjoying life too, like going to a friend's house at batam for 4 days when school is going on as per normal; partying as hard as ever, house parties, drinking sessions perfectly fit for a pimp!. I definitely feel liberated right now.

LIBERATED IN A GOOD WAY.
but what a ride it was.
and now im marching on to the fifth lap.
it's happening way too fast and i just hate it when my 19th birthday is reaching (somewhat soon)!

PETRIFIED; it's time to be.
i dont know what the fuck happened on saturday night.
just feels so bad to kill the joy.

maybe we shouldnt have opened bottles.
so much for getting so high and swallowing tablets which stranger fed me with.
trouble.
this spells trouble.

it felt like euthanasia. hmmm.
really i swear. i didnt even feel any pain when i fell down for times so countless.
i only realised it the next morning that i have such a big cut on my feet. GRAH.

HOIHOIHOI.
HOIHOIHOI.
AND YESSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS! HALO IS FINALLY BEING PLAYED IN CLUBS.
HELLL YES! :)

7th march 2009 is definitely a day to remember for mstoh and her husband issac.
the newly weds held their wedding function at four seasons hotel and i thank mstoh for inviting cindy,amanda and me.

it wasn't just a wedding lunch, but rather a holy matrimony and the abundance of blessings which god showered the newly weds and those present. for a very very long while, i haven't had that feeling already; the feeling of god's blessing and love overflowing so much that i was about to drown! another joyious event which happened was i managed to catch up with some of my primary school teachers and they remembered me! I wasn't notorious! ( trust me on that! )

after the function, it started pouring!
thus, we decided to cab home and not long after, the cab passed by my school ( ngeeannpoly).
and whamp; a chain of thoughts just came through.
im rather saddened by the fact that april 2009's semester will officially be my last schooling semester. there is a whole load of people i want to thank for helping me get through year 2. it hasnt been easy but nonetheless, we made it!

first and foremost.
geraldina; for your constant encouragement and telling me not to give up when the going gets tough or tougher. it was never an easy road but your words of encouragement made the road seem walkable.

cindy
dearest cindy. though we drifted a little but the bond is always there when we meet up and we never fail to update each other and always sharing a good laugh about whatever we've missed out on each other!

amanda lee; amanda, i dont know if you know this but i really really really appreciate the fact that you've been a part of my life. you've left footsteps in my heart. never failing to fill me up with the juciest news and i know year 2 hasnt been easy for you especially semester 2 but at least, we got it over and done with! just one more semester :) and i know you're still finding the right direction to march on but i have faith that you will find the right path once you graduate from ngeeann!

faithchristinelim.
faith darling.
thanks for listening to me all these while; and accepting me for who i am, never asking me to change who i am just to please the fucking world. thanks for that i appreciate it.

bernicejayneang.
thanks for all the laughter you have given me.
you're hilarious, and you're healthy, you're entertaining and definitely a great listener.
thanks for listening to me rant.

kimhyuntae.
heh dude. thanks for being there for me whenever i needed you.
you're someone reliable and i know i can always depend on you for all the shits that's going through.

and ALL. all who has helped me in a way or another. thanks for making it possible for me to get by year 2. that's about it, my closing entry as a year 2 student. OMFG. you dont have to remind me that im turning 19 this year. SHEEEESH.