life as an urbanite.

experiences are meant to make us stronger.
my heart was deeply shattered today.
many of us would ponder; why. just why did this happened?
what has she done wrong?
the angelic eyes; those beaming smiles; the innocence we all once used to have.
it just makes no sense.

perhaps, 2008 just isn't a good year.
2008 is the year when i should be all happy and joyous that i'm 18.
a point where i am able to shoulder the social and legal responsibilities.
a year when i should be soaring so high.

yet today, my heart sank.
probably one year ago, she was still up and jumping.
probably she would have the fondest memory of children's day.
probably... just probably.

i just hope that she will be able to find peace in her new found home.
that god will always shelter her from all harm.
that angels surround her away from demons and bads.

i think, it's really time.
time for me to explore my religion.
time for me to value it.
time for me to change it if need be.

both my mom and i will be in church to offer a mass service on her behalf.
i'll turn vegeterian, all in her good will.
i can't forget those pictures.
those pictures of her smiles.

life is just ridiculously mocking fun at us.
in times like this,
just shut up and listen to your friend.
whoever it may be.
whatever they are.

god bless you.